When I started this program I found out for the first time that I wasn’t the only person that could sometimes be daunted by the idea of getting out of bed and starting the day. Reading that in Og’s first scroll was a relief and an eye-opener.
Unlike some of my fellow travellers it me a long time to finally find serenity and when I did, I assumed serenity was here to stay. When that feeling of unrest and fear crept back into the pit of my stomach I was shocked. And instead of doing something with it, I got completely overwhelmed and even paralysed.
When my city speaks to me
I was back in my new home in Barcelona and had great plans to get back on the wagon and dig in even deeper than I had before. But even the smallest things felt like a mountain to climb. The past weeks I have done a great deal of sleeping and feeling tired.
During my daily bike ride through the city I chanced upon a busstop ad for keeping youngsters off drugs. It read ‘Commit to yourself, if you say you’re going to do something, (than) do it’
And I was so happy to read this. It was a reminder that I needed to dig in and regain the pride I had felt for weeks.
Small blessing
Once again I had the feeling of being the battlefield of my old blueprint and my new one, for a moment it looked as though old subby was winning. That was when I received a reminder (sorry Mark) for my survey and PIF.
When I wanted to pay, my creditcard bounced.
I felt panic at the thought of not continuing with the program, never mind being cut out of it. I sent an email but received no answer and I swear my old blueprint spoke to me. It said, this is probably a sign that you should be quitting.
I did something I should have done much sooner (I know!) I asked in the alliance area for insights or advice about other payment modes. When one beautiful soul, a fellow traveller reach out for help.
She described her helping me with my PIF as a small blessing.
I must admit I struggled with this thought at first. Now I can only say, I am grateful and proud to be in the same (virtual) room as her. I am even more determined to give this journey my all and to go above and beyond in helping others.
If you are reading this, know that you are a great blessing to me. I will make you and myself proud!
This week my virtue will be humility, I already feel humbled today.
Feeling #Blessed, loved and grateful
Holding the Key 
Not breaking through, yet getting the task of it, is indeed very frustrating. Its like the growing kids do; they hit the ceiling and for a time they feel content; then they stretch and yet continue hitting the ceiling. Suddenly, the break through comes and they have mastered a new skills. Likewise, we are most down and frustrated, usually, before the morning dawns. Your break-through is coming!!!!
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Not breaking through, yet getting the taste of it, is indeed very frustrating. Its like the growing kids do; they hit the ceiling and for a time they feel content; then they stretch and yet continue hitting the ceiling. Suddenly, the break through comes and they have mastered a new skills. Likewise, we are most down and frustrated, usually, before the morning dawns. Your break-through is coming!!!!
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At the risk of repeating myself: Thank you. Your encouragement humbles me and empowers me in equal measures!
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There is much greatness, Najet, in being aware and putting forth the effort to catch up. And in showing vulnerability. The Universe obviously found you worthy!
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Thank you Rob! I strive to be and remain worthy 🙂
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https://masterkeynajet.wordpress.com/2017/03/05/week-2122-tools-of-a-grateful-receiver-mkmma/
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Oopy, I copied your link in my comment, not my comment. LOL. (That’s a Monday morning). What I had written before that gave me trouble posting is that you’re not alone waiting for your big breakthrough, I’m right there with you. But we have to remember the little things lead to the big things! And we ‘re all here cheering you on!
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Thank you Heather, and right back at ya!
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Very lovely “Tools of a grateful: blog. Thank yo for sharing. and your sharing this is a blessing to us.
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Thank you Robert! ❤
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