In our last tribe call, we decided to focus on the positive for this week’s blog. Usually this is the space I use for my weekly rant or moaning session.
This week has been full of small and larger blessings. I have been investing more in the course and I can truly feel the difference.
I feel stronger and more alive than I have for a long time and the work is pouring in! I am envisioning myself increasingly as my future self and that feels so good!
Slings and arrows
I get that life throws you curveballs, I get that it can’t be easy every day, but I really need a breather.
Today I learnt that a person very close to my heart has cancer. Needless to say I fell off the mental diet wagon. I struggle not blaming doctors for not finding out sooner. I have been looking for different people to blame since this morning, and to be fair, I came up with quite a list.
So it’s back to square one for me. I am not sulky or cynical, just sad and angry. And human I guess.
The past years this word has had such a strange connotation for me. It has meant the irrational and blind faith in something unknown. And that was a bad thing.
Recently I have searched the way back to my faith in this unknown. It seems like a cheap and desperate way perhaps in this dire hour for my loved-one. But my go-to strategy -finding out stuff and solutions for the problem- would be ludicrous and not efficient.
So all that remains is to pray for better health and guide my mind to positive thoughts.
‘You cannot be healthy; you cannot be happy; you cannot be prosperous; if you have a bad disposition. If you are sulky, or surly, or cynical, or depressed, or superior, or frightened half out of your wits, your life cannot possibly be worth living.’ E. Fox